entomed_heart

The tears are choking me and it's hard to fight them. I just feel like complete shit. Hurt from the inside and just devistated. I feel like just pulling the trigger leting the edge run and ending it. Why ? because life seems to shitty on you all the time. It just hurts me...I feel like the knife would find the comfort I need...i need to be alone and away from all....I'm just fucked up and dying on the inside.....*crying* I hope this passes or I become apathetic to it all.

Ever have the feeling one of those people you care about and think of all the time is just pulling the string to one more drink. To another last time of heart ache and BS. The one moment and the fucked up attitude they do to you and fuck with you. If I had the knife in my hand I dig the distance you've taken into your chest and mesure out the ounces for every second you took from my life. So don't waste the time you had to think and do what you want. I've given up for the sake of never feeling again. A kife have better chance reaching my heart then your clamy love. For it not what I asked for or wanted from this. SO maybe you can figure out what it meant when I ignored the call and never responded to the messges. Because this time you've made the choice and played your final game so go on and just keep being the same.

I wrote this for some shit I was feeling. Sometime I wish forget things and be in bliss but bliss never helps the future come true.

Tonight we'll be hosting Bractune/Out Of Line recording artist Aesthetic Perfection. This will be their last US show for at least a year as the band is relocating to Europe this April. Plus he'll be joined by The Muttha Fucking Operative as live support!!!

Do Not Miss This Event!!!!!

Admission will be $10 all night.

(18+) 14241 Euclid St. Garden Grove,CA, 92843 4 blocks south of the 22 Freeway.

Last night was fun as hell we had like a drunk orgy of people the numbers where good and everyone had a fun time dear lord !! hahahah boob shots and I should be a photographer heheh with the shots I get. Such trouble making heheheheh I can't wait to Dj again next week and head on my mini tour heheh it will be sweet.!!

I just watched the movie and it made a good point. People will act so low to get wgat they want. I notice with the club scene people do it all the time to validate a small life of theirs. Others their passion. Yet it's something only few see even in the other worlds and scenes. Popularity at first and then failure. Yet we sell and bargin for things for the things we want. Heheheheh the devil is quite good in the movie. I do say stop and think what do you need ??

I noticed since broke back mountain came out their it's become quite a slang for gay couples kinda funny when people say " I think he got a broke back mountine think going on with______..." wow that all hahahahah(end tranmission). Also I got a new tattoo so weeeee enjoy

I noticed the ego in our scene is eating away at what we have....so much people running the music with ego's and bs running the experince for all. I noticed it's not about music for most the people but more of hidding behinde shit. I notice with most it's about they ego. "I'm a better DJ then _________ and they can't beat match worth shit...." said DJ_______. You know it's just sad, I think most of us should be uniting and stop trying to prove who's better then what. People say its to grow and no harm no fowl but what does it mean when we can't put one thing aside and respect each other ?? sad if most people ruin something. I myself fell if more people worked togther it be better. I mean it's good to have aan ego you need it to get ahead and confidence but not an ego to destroy all. BUt one can not give up on what they love....it is a process of struggle and to make the slit diffrence or huge to others can understand. One thing I feel that reminds me is the music...something pumping harsh loud screaming and noise to which a new era of music will fallow.We are the future let us not rember the past or mistakes pollute us. Lets march forward and inspire and help each other. For the only thing that will redeam us is uniting togther. I love you all and I will say for the music I will never give up and for the people I won't ever stop !! to inspire them with the music I first listend to that inspired me and push harder. Music keeps me going and pushing harder and higher to never give up and the support of my loved ones friends family and piers. Lets stomp this motha fucking world !! heheheh oontz.

The Anaheim show was sold out and this is the only chance you will get to see them so get tics fast they are going out like crazy!! they are on sale at infirmary

Taking off we have alot going on and been doing well. I'm very excited and always feeling way better about the night. Its so huge the venue and filling it won't be a problem. We are the fast growing. Ever since old maschine and making the new infirmary with great friends to help it's time for me to focous on DJ ing more and getting guest spots. I've not been out in a while and I think it's time.

check this shit out !!
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[ Opening night December 7th!!! ]

OC's Newest all industrial club!!

Featuring DJ's:
Rev John(Das Bunker)
Anti Matter(Electrocution/Apocalypse)
Asphyxiation(Infrared/Redlight)
Trauma

Special performances by:

Alter Der Ruine

[ and ]

Exemia

ALONG WITH GIVE AWAYS FROM=
God Module, Negatve Format, Parallel Project, System Syn, Fake + MORE
(shirts, posters signed CD's, buttons)

Upcoming Infirmary Events:
January 11th: Guest DJs VLRK of Grendel and Jasyn of God Module.
TBA February:-Mechanizms label night Artists TBA
March 22nd-Crunchpod Recording artists C/A/T

http://www.myspace.com/clubinfirmary

Here are a few tips to help people understand protions better.

1. When a club has to put no drama.....well I will let you think about that.

2. Putting that you don't need huge investments or big names to make them big or lots of sponsers yet your page has more then everyone else just makes you look dumb.

3. When you write something just learn how to write !! hahahahah me included on this hahahah that is all.

I'm growing tired of all these fake people, they ruine the fucking experince in my life. 'm tired of this bs people put to be popular. Fuck that, I mean I just got word of a new club opening and it has a fucking lame name. It's just pissing me off. Most people it seems lost the messge it's about the music not wardrobe not fucking scene points. Fuck you people for cheaping my life and making me look like ajoke with your bs wannabe bs. I get tired of them sometimes I think I should fucking move from here and move to a forgiene country where it means something. I mean shit ugggghhhh...some people discusse me ...fuck this shit !!

So the weekend re-cap friday got to patricks appartment and meet Mike , Tamara,Stewart, Patrick and Sarah or (5arah). Hung out got ready for bunker then went. Did a little pre drinking then danced our asses off introduced had fun Stewart got hit on by Voltaire from suicide girls and everyone sorta just hung out talked and meet bands. After went home slept. Saturday, we got up lounged me Patrick got my hair cut service his car got the guys went back to shop but did not happen then went to eat Koren BBQ which was pretty good. Guys went home while Patrick and Patrick went to go get my boots that where comped. Went home dyed our hair and cut Patricks. Looked bitching in it. Went to teh venue and watched the guys play fucking rocked the socks off people. Had a badass time !! guys kicked so much ass. Then drank more talked to Sonya for a bit then went home. Threw an after party for the guys and in return they gave me an Ozone midi mixer for a present to say thanks for all the help andd having a great time. Crashed out about 6 am. Woke up the guys left and Me, Marc, Patrick hung around worked on some stuff a DJ of ours dropped out and we got a new one who just as good. Got some shit worked out and now on easy street people will be blown away with the new logo's so fucking happy heheheheheh..this will be a frist for OC !! so happy and excited for it all !! good weekend

Thank you all who came to support the new opening you truly are wounderful people and simple love the music and life. I like to thank Raze for getting crazy up in the party and maing it tht much better.....my girl jessica and my home boy phil for being their great loveable selves !! Sam for showing us how drinking can go ooooh so wron ghehehe j/k. Marc for DJ ing and Michael I apperciate it all Marco and mische for coming out although you guys need a well deserved time alone with each other. I thank sean and kristen his gf who make me laugh all the time patrick for being bartender and a great host and wounderful conversationest. Ugggghhhhh...ben for taking more photos Sal for catching me sleeping and taking advatage of me hahhahhah...and everyone else the night was a blur but you all made it happen so thank you so much wait till opening night !!

Hosted By: Duncan Toole
When: Saturday Nov 05, 2005
at 7:00 PM
Where: Apt 416
6121 Glade ave. Apt 416 woodland hill,ca,91367
woodland hills, CA 91367
US
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Duncan Toole

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